Confusion

 

Chaos and Order

Confusion and Clarity

Such are Yin and Yang

Joyous

Jumbled emotions

Pinned to the Winter’s season

Is this to be ‘Joy?’

 

Getting back to good?

 

Is it even possible to ‘get back to good?’

All the running around searching for a way to go backward appears to be wasted energy. We can’t go backwards. We’re not built that way. It seems to me that we need to work on the existing foundation in order to be ‘good.’

My own foundation is warped and has stress fractures. This is not going to change. I cannot just smear new concrete in the cracks and apply a rubberized coating and call it a day. There is real work that needs to be done in order to allow the structure to remain.

Metaphors aside, I need to rebuild much of what I’ve lost over the last few years. There’s no other way to perform the work other than to do it. To work through the tasks and absorb what they are teaching me rather than just run through motions just to complete them.

Instead of looking at the long-term, I’ve been head down on the individual tasks that I thought were necessary. Many of which, it turns out, were not at all in line with the end results I desire. I suppose that this is wisdom.

Now to hitch this up with the alleged intelligence that I’ve been rumored to have.